I am Wiccan and I'm stepping out of the broom closet!

After watching a few things on you tube and having to send an e-mail to someone defining my beliefs. I have come to the conclusion that I am Going to Identify myself as Wicca.

It's taken a long time for me to find a way to define my self to others in a way that can be understood and not taken in the wrong way (I hope). bot now that I have chosen this it seems to have made my path with spirit clearer.

Wicca empowers me to be a healer, a seer and puts me in touch with my spirit.

Monsters monsters everywhere!?!?!

Who doesn't have monsters under the bed? I think we all have monsters at times and I think that we never really get rid of them, we just learn to cope with them. We lock them up and throw away the key, banish them so they can never return or do some of us embrace our monsters and learn to live with them.

All this thinking of my monsters and there return to my life made me think of what has been going on in my life right now and what a lot of people say about manifestation. This brought me to another point that you only really manifest the things you need at the time. So by that logic my monsters are there for me to work with a face? Kind of a cool thought really, I mean come on I have pet monsters HA HA HA HA HA.

Right then so now that I have my own band of monsters what the hell do I do with them and how the hell do I work with them?? I mean I don't really like to look at them much so where do I start? What are my monsters really, are they spirits that I have created that could be under my control?? Are they aspects of my self?? What do I do with them??

This is harder than I thought but when I went to bed last night I asked my self what had been happening in my life that would make me need monsters. What are they trying to remind me of and are they there because I need some ugly ferocious backup for the fights ahead. That's when the idea that these monsters are there not to scare me but to help me in an ugly situation really seemed to make sense. What better ally for a fight than a big ferocious beast and if I can confront the beast within then there is nothing out there that will ever be able to hurt me.

I thought to my self a long time ago that when I finally worked with my shadow self it would be in deep meditation with a guide at my side and lots of candles and incense. But the reality of my confrontation was much better and much more natural.

Lying in bed the monsters came, they surrounded me and turned there hideous faces towards me and instead of fear I felt compassion. They were me in my shadowy aspects, they were the parts of me that I ignored and all I wanted to do was cry. My poor untrusted monsters, I would hide under the bed too if I looked like that. Now I have a band of horrid helpers at my side with teeth and claws and I have never felt safer than I do now.

Community in peril.

I seem to be doing this a lot lately, read something and then put something up in my blog just to make the point heard. But I suppose you aren't all reading the things I read and wont see the things I am seeing. I have just read about a woman who was killed in her home in Syria because she was Pagan. Now I stress that she was not doing something alien, bad or evil. She was reviving a belief in the gods that were prolific through her home country. These practise's she was doing were practise's that were native to her land and yet she was tortured and killed for her faith. Something that is in my opinion irrelevant to anyone else besides her and people who may share in those beliefs.

Why was she killed I wonder to my self. Is it because she was different, is it because someone didn't like her? Who cares and why doesn't the reason matter. She was killed because she was and I quote "a witch".

THIS IS ME PUTTING MY FOOT DOWN!!!

Protection for my brothers and sisters is my aim now. We are a people whether we are black or white, so why aren't we a people when are faiths are different. This has to Stop and Stop is what it will do!

To read the post I read please click on the link below. Interfaith work needs to be done and we need to learn to work with each other with compassion, tolerance and understanding.

http://wildhunt.org/2013/03/the-fall-of-a-syrian-pagan.html

Is this a curse or am I just unlucky.

I have been doing a lot of reading lately and have always been interested in the mechanics of cursing. I have never performed a curse and would never ever want to but my interest in them is based on my belief that "a witch cannot heal if a witch cannot harm" (a doctor cannot prescribe med's without understanding the symptoms). The idea being that if I was to have a friend of mine come to me with a curse problem then I would need to know the basics of cursing to be able to undo the magick done to my friend and heal any damage that was done as a result.

What I do know about cursing people is that the ritual can be quite labour intensive. I have all ways found that magick seems to flow quite well with me and that most things come naturally and move with some ease but to think that I would have to push and push hard to make a spell work sits wrong in my gut. Then there is the fact of trade??? OK so in magick there is a certain amount of trade of for the desired effects like an offering to divinity/spirits but most of the time I conjure up the energy I need with my own brand of magickal mojo. This is my favourite part of magick, simply because I get to just let my emotions and my creativity run rampant and create something energetic, powerful and positive.

Picture of my spell board  lit for protection during Samhain.

How would I do this for a curse? The very thought makes me uneasy. How would I dance if my magick was to cause harm, what would I sing if my magick was to kill and what would I offer? A life for a life???????
No.........I think that's as much as I need to know. The idea that this power exists is like the knowledge that nuclear weapons are running rampant in the world with irresponsible people holding the buttons.

Writing this makes me think of what possible reasons could I have to perform a curse and would there ever be a time when someone deserved it and it makes me think of the man and woman in the news lately that burned there 6 children alive in there own home. I think of Hitler and them men that were under his command that caused such atrocities in the world. Where would you curse where would you not and is it enough for you to let karma work its own brand of magick. I'm not sure that if I knew there was one man to blame for the suffering of thousands that I hand on heart wouldn't curse him. But i suppose this is what makes me part of the world we live in, we can all change our ways based on the experiences of our lives.

OOOOOOO well HA HA HA  that was long winded and pointless but I feel better for writing it. I hope I don't have to worry about cursing people and if I ever do that the situation is easily worked out another way. This is a weapon in my arsenal that I never want to use and I have never been happier to admit that I am scared of something HA HA HA even if it simply because my fear drives me to look for alternatives.