Time I began moving again.

It's been a lovely past week or so. The summer solstice rolled round and again my life was filled with magick. I spent a night down at a friends house by the river to watch the sunrise, and whilst I was there the elements just spoke volumes to me all the while. The Fae were constant during my magick as I sensed them in all the things I did. The next day I had a party to go to where a group of my friends were and where we all chanted and sang songs well in to the night.
All in all the solstice was a very energetic and spiritual time for me as it always is. But since then I have done little in the way of ritual work and have left my Bardic training to grind to a steady halt.
Right now though, I think it is time for me to get my head out of my ass and back in to the magick that is all around me and that I want to make a part of my life.

But where do I start?? It's weird because magick has become second nature to me or so I thought. What do I do now? How do I pick up where I left off??

The thing is I don't think I ever really do leave off. I just take a break form the energetic side of things and just go with the moments. But when the last moment ends it brings with it a sense of disconnect that makes me feel as though I have lost my place.

Hey little dude. May the goddess watch over you.

OoooooI have just this Minuit had an Ahhaaa moment. If I don't know where I'm gonna start up again then maybe I should take a moment to look at the possibilities. How many angles are there that I can see, how many things can I do before I'm committed to the one practise for however long it may take. Ahhaaa lets see how many little magickal jobs I can get done before I have to start one one of the big ones that are waiting for me. I never would have had this opportunity if I hadn't had this time to stop and reflect on what there is for me to achieve.

Maybe I will write a spell or practise calling in the elements. Maybe I could make a potion. I do love making potions HA HA. Ohh the ideas I have now that I have the moment to formulate them.............Maybe I never did leave the moment. Maybe this is just a different moment for different things and different reasons all together.

Well well in that case blessed are the spirits indeed. Ciao peeps I'm off to cast :oD

Watching what I watch.

Its been lovely in spirit with my guides and the power of the elements growing inside me. I have just completed my water weaving ritual and bringing the element of water into balance. It was a bit of a roller coaster with my emotions on highs and lows like tides of the ocean. One minute being able to deal with everything and then not being able to cope with my tiny problems. But working with my guide and the element of water more and more helped me to balance what was happening and deal with my emotional tides.

Since this my intuition and senses have grown more sensitive to the other worlds and the spirits around me. I have been exploring this new found awareness and reading a book quoted in my Druidry course about the element's. It has been really really interesting to learn about the elements in a way that explores their personalities and not just their influences. On top of this reading I have been looking in to the realm of my guides, the Fae.

During all this reading and research it has been made very clear that what is being watched, read and heard is being monitored and scrutinised by not just myself but my guides and especially my little sprite.

While watching a video on my laptop that some people may remember me posting on other sites about the Fairy Faith, I found myself loosing concentration and not paying attention to what I was watching. I was thinking about how real all this stuff on the video seemed and then I remember thinking to myself "Is this stuff not just all these peoples head's". At that moment while I was sat at one end of the room and my partner at the other the TV turned itself on. Now just to clarify that this has never happened before with anything in the house and the TV remote was nowhere to be found. I looked at the telly with its blank screen and thought to myself "ah I think someone is trying to make a point". So I un-paused the video on my laptop and began to pay more attention to what I was watching. To mine and my partners amusement the TV turned itself off.

I laughed for a while as my partner began questioning what the hell could be going on, so I just told him that my guide had just turned it on to make a point of telling me to pay attention. My lovely man just smiled at me knowing that my brand of magic seems to do stuff without me asking and seemed to be satisfied with my explanation of the TVs erratic behaviour. Although I have been told off for not paying attention it's actually quite nice to feel a definite sense of guidance being given to me. I'm learning so much and have nothing but thanks and admiration for the spirits that are helping me along my path.

Fairy or fool?!?!

Here I was thinking about how we speak to each other and how we address our guides, God's and Goddess's. After speaking with a friend of mine about their spirit guides we realised that we speak to them and commune with them in very different ways.

Mine being a fairy is very fun and mischievous so when I speak to him I speak like I would to a friend and even to get my point across I swear. Now he seems to really respond to me and although people may say I am disrespectful to him I will just say that I haven't told you what he said back not to mention what he does hahaha. But my friend who I was talking to is on the other side of this scale and is very serious and respectful to his guides. This brought me to look at how I speak to the spiritual allies that I have mustered through my years of the craft. 

My spirit guide and me have only been working together for a few months but together we have learnt a lot. I have learnt about his world and the magick that is in everything and he has learnt about us and the world we live in. We work together with the elements and we work together with meditations. It is like I have not so much gained a guide but a friend in another world. 

Ok so no Hecate but still Apollo in this pic is FIT!!!! :oD

My God and Goddess have both spoken to me in very different ways through healing's and just standing in the door telling me off for being a dick. To Apollo and Hecate I am very respectful but who wouldn't be respectful when talking with a god of plagues who is a crack shot with a bow or the goddess of magic and the three worlds ha ha. But in a way I feel as though I have a relationship with them that is more than just a "Hi its me again. Can I have this?" arrangement. We speak to each other and when I am struggling they lift me up out of the grunge again to fight with renewed strength. 

When it comes to them, I speak with trust and love in my heart and a sense that If I am talking to you then you will listen and act on what I say in what way you deem fit to act. And based on that logic if I say the wrong thing then I might not like how they act haha. However I also feel that they are beyond me as aspects of the same divine that is in everything. When I honour them I am honouring the divine in myself and everything, therefore they deserve a level of respect and reverence that causes me to treat them very differently to a guide who I feel is my equal just in another plane of existence.

I wonder how others speak to their gods and guides. Are you their servant, companion or master. How does it all work with you??

Balance a new kind of independence.

For a very long time I was someone who would look to his books and try to figure out how to make his magickal practise personal, powerful and easy to do. Bot for such a long time i was falling flat on my face.

I'm so glad I did haha. My faltering has taught me a great deal about myself, others and magick in the world. It has been a great big up hill struggle until now but I finally feel an air of confidence in my magickal working that I never felt before and it's all because of balance. The whole idea being drilled in to my head revolves around the fact that without balance nothing can exist. Everything must work in harmony with something else for both to survive, Yin &Yang, Chaos & Cosmos, Cause & Effect.

Everything in this world is subject to the actions of what is around it.

But besides that, the wonderful thing is that my actions if planned can bring about awesome effects. My prayers can be heard and create effect's and the idea that a butterfly flapping it's wings in England could be the one gust in the whole atmosphere that moves the air just enough to trigger a storm in the Atlantic fascinates me.

I am a part of this huge system that responds to everything I do in kind. What energy I give out is equal to the effect that occurs so the more energy I move the bigger the occurrence.

How empowering is that.

Water ist the healing element for a reason.

It has been an amazing experience today during my water attunement. The focus is on the healing aspect of water, it deals with your emotions and your feeling/sensitive self. The ritual was a deeply empowering and very familiar for me. I have always felt an affinity for the water element even though the element of my birth sign is fire. I have found that it has always been east to sense the element of water around me. It's presence makes me feel strong and confident but also scares me with its power and ferocity, reflecting the power of the emotions in all of us.

During the ritual I felt the energy of the element enter my hands and encompass my entire body, filling my aura and empowering me with a blue healing energy. The ritual asked me to turn healing toward the earth in its entirety and as I visualised the earth hovering above my cupped hands the blue light that had energised me began to seep form my hands like the northern lights in its peacock hues and bathe the earth in healing energy. The vision in front of me was awe inspiring and I found myself almost gasp at the beauty of the magick that was happening before my eye's.

Audrey Douteroux

Earth gave me my stable foundation the body of my craft. But now water has urged me to feel a deeper and more connected link to the ether around me, the ebb and flow of magick, trust my intuition and focus my emotions in to action. There is so much the elements can teach us and I am only just starting to hear what I should have been listening too a long long time ago.

Blessed are the Spirits.